Ok A #9
Ok had a #9.5 (if she would fix her hair up she'd be a 10) tonight things where going great smiling and laughing anyways we where dancing and I told her "be careful with that knee and don't you be getting any ideas" lol (she smiles) so a little later I felt like I could go in for a kiss soo I said "hey kiss on the cheek for old times sake"(so it could build up to a better kiss) ok dancing for few more seconds longer this time face to face gave a deep stare into her eyes thought it was the "ok sign" went in for the kill got rejected she said "not right now" now I was lost and scared again, so I quickly recovered with a mystery line "thats ok I was just being nice, I really wasn't interested" she laughed and said "ya right"............ ok where do I go? what do I do? what stage am I at?
P.s, I met her at my friend kaliki's and I thought it was ok to kiss at the second meeting location so I wouldn't get buyers remorse. Did I just mess this all up?
also don't have cell phone I would really love to recover!!!!! But anyways I could let it go for a while and try again later, IDK?
P.s.s. Here is her myspace, http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=99239425
You're definetely in there. Just go back to building comfort. Both Mystery and Style talk about like things you can do to kino escalata, like a little tug of the hair, bitting the neck. Try to get a verbal ok rather than a sign, I've been there don't worry it's not the end of the world. I've had a girl pull from a kiss while SHE WAS RUBBING MY COCK! So yeah some women are weird about kissing.
OK I'm OVER IT..... this is the thing, I think if I had my own place and had a car so I could get around or phone to have contact it would have all helped but I'm bout over all this BS and I'm just gonna go back into my dark ages like when I was 16 & 17 and just worry about my fighting and fuck this GAME for a while until I can figure out my next plan of action I'v heard girls I'v hung out with a couple of times say "Damn hes a cool guy I'd fuck him" when there in the kitchen with there girls and I was in the other room secretly listening but when push comes to shove I always run outta shit to talk about and I fuck it all up, you really don't know what its like man, it sucks, I'm soo good when I first open my mouth but just don't know how to take it anywhere then it gets all akward and I'm lost, DHV & opening is my strength, but the rest is my weakness!!!!! its always been this way, what should I do????
P.s. Almost all Rockstars!!!! suffered there childhood and teen years but manned up and did something about it I believe I just need to get my life together move to a big city, thats what I've always wanted to do all along and just forget this BS until I can get fancially stable, anyways I'm gonna go delete my myspace and stay away from this seduction stuff for a while, gonna sign for my next fight in the up coming weeks and HONESTLY live my dream anyways its been Nice Meeting all of you I wish the best PEACE OUT!!!!!
Your Friend, Randall Jason Webb
You are overthinking it dude. You don't want to know where I came from or what I've been thru. Only the present matters. If you want to quit, quit. But know that you have control over your life. Don't think that these crutches (no house, no car, no phone) control you, you control you. Material things mean nothing, it's proven. MbM expresses this very explicitly just watch this.
If you don't return, well it was good to have you here. Also you're young, you get one of these freakouts with a free pass, on the next one i'll just tell you things like they are.
